21/12/2013

Dear Diary,
Today still similar like a usually.  The same flurry with the same result. Like no progress. Actually, this is make me saturated.  I’m someone who like as have 4 human’s characteristics (sanguinis, koleris, plagmatis, melankolis) can’t depressed like this continously. Alright, I’m someone who can’t work under pressure and be pursued by deadline. My mind like art’s people who want inscribe their ink appropriate with their moody and their desire. But somehow environment as if led me in order that I’m be able to work under pressure. The surroundings always banging me on condition where I have to move against direction that I want. 

That’s true, I’m be stronger. Strong with empasis of life. But, Is it wrong if I want to be them? People who always obtain that they want. I’m not ungreatful. Exactly, this condition make me more sensitive and softer. I don’t want, if someday Allah really puts me in their position, I’m changed be someone who has heart hardly and covered by vanity. 

I remember when I were speaker in new’s student of university’s event. I delivered story about pipit’s bird, turtle and coconut tree. They were friend. Some day, they promised for take a life severally. After a long time passed, they were reunited in the warm meeting.  Pipit told that she flew go around continent and seen the beautiful clouds. It was same with turtle, He didn’t want lost. During 5 years, He walked go around ocean and enjoyed the beautiful island. 

How about coconut’s tree? He couldn’t speak anything. How were he able to speak? He just stayed at here. He was life and die also at here. He felt unusefullness. However without He realized, start from his bud until the end of body gives benefit for all. He droped his seed, flowed by water so that able to spreaded around continent and ocean. And what was delivered by pipit and turtle?. “At continent and ocean, we always see you, coconut. You complete the beauty of place where we stay”. Whereas we know that coconut doesn’t move, impossibility. And we know that, at present coconut become symbol of scout. And I want, in everywhere I can be coconut like this story. (Eka)